I had a recipe for pumpkin spice cookies that I was supposed to be writing about but then today happened. I didn't write. I spent most of today transfixed at my computer screen watching the American election results stack up, obsessively checking twitter and the guardian, mouth slightly ajar, horror struck at what was unfolding. I guess the unthinkable can only be unthinkable until it happens. I didn't want to write about politics here. Generally I didn't want to engage at all. But it is all to surreal and affecting we can't not talk about it. For months he has been a joke, something to be mocked and derided, an object of disgust for his comments about women, people of colour, migrants and LGBQT rights - but that "thing", "that couldn't possibly happen", well it fucking happened. America's divisive and hate filled underbelly has been exposed to us by a tangerine boffin who predicated his election campaign on hate & blame. It is heartbreaking. I am scared for all my family and friends still in the States.
The internet seemed to implode and a disbelieving public seemed to collectively scream out "how did this happen??" There is so much fear and anxiety swirling around now it is hard to focus on much else. Bleeding through all the calamity and chaos are strong voices of support and hope which leads me to think things will be interesting if not ok. You can take some solace that the election results don't speak for all Americans. A lot but not all. I am trying to remove my liberal bubble and see both sides, that it is more than just racism that motivated this victory, the whys and the hows but it is still to new and raw to dissect. Maybe when the dust settles. Somehow my leftie/feminist tendencies make me think I will never quite get there.
Once it was called, I turned off the telly, put on some bowie, I cracked a bottle of gin and got baking. So instead of pumpkin spice cookies here are some mofoglies (Mother-fuckin' uglies - in honor of some of the beliefs and attitudes expressed today). They look like squashed turds, kind of like politics. But they are also rich, warm, comforting and delicious - so we can hope not all is lost. A fitting metaphor cookie.
It can't be Armageddon yet, I've only just perfected my pizza dough recipe.
- 150g dark chocolate (70% Cocoa)
- 125g unsalted butter, soft
- 75g brown sugar
- 30g caster sugar
- 60g self raising flour
- 50g cocoa powder
- 1 tsp baking soda
- pinch of salt
- 1 tsp vanilla extract
- 1 egg
- 1 ½ Cups chocolate chips (i like to use milk & white)
- ½ Cup mini marshmallows
- 8 chewy caramels, chopped into small pieces
- Preheat oven to 170C/325F. Line a baking sheet with parchment paper. Melt the 150 grams of dark chocolate in a small saucepan over very low heat or in the microwave.
- Cream the butter and sugars in a large bowl until pale and creamy. Add the melted chocolate and beat well to combine. Beat in the vanilla extract and egg until well combined.
- Sift the dry ingredients into the chocolate mixture and stir to combine. Finally stir in the chocolate chips, marshmallows and caramel pieces. If the dough is too soft you can place in the fridge to firm up for 20 minutes.
- Use a tablespoon to scoop out even amounts of cookie dough, lay on prepared baking sheet at least 5cm apart. Chill for 10 - 30 minutes.
- Bake in preheated oven for 15-18 minutes. Leave to cool slightly then transfer to wire rack to cool completely.
- Eat and try to forget the horrors of life